Yesterday, I heard an unfortunate news. One of my previous students dropped out of school. It breaks my heart, and what hurts me more is the impact that teachers have played in his decision to drop out of school.
When I first met him, he was only one of my 64 third graders in my small overcrowded classroom. It wasn’t long till he stood out. Everyday, he forgot his homework. There was never a day that passed without him interrupting class. He fought with his classmates, argued with teachers, and always seemed to not care.
His pride was his everything, even at the age of 10 (8us). He would always say that he will drop out of school. Although school was his fortress, where he held his power, he hated to study. He abhorred books and thought memorising his Chinese and Maths textbooks was horrendous. He ripped out the English textbook and scribbled on all of what remained. He other textbooks barely survived a year.
I was lucky enough to get to know this little fellow. (Respect is a two way street.) Several home visits and a lot of time investment allowed me to build a strong rapport with him. At times, he made my life a living hell; but sometimes, I felt like I was flying through air. I literally rode on an emotional roller coaster. I know that I made my teammates feel it too! But, he and I both survived my first year teaching in rural China.
When I left, he shared with me he can’t stay in school longer. But, he was tough and finished fifth grade. Yesterday, he texted me and told me that he is no longer going to school. He confided in me 3 reasons for quitting: 1. Studying is boring 2. Reciting is annoying 3. Teachers were not supportive.
I think as teachers we forget what an enormous impact we have on students. We also forget that students need pastoral care, as shown by this little guy, teachers play a crucial role in students’ lives. There’s not much I can do for him at this moment, but to listen and to tell him that I believe in him. One thing that I can do is to support the students that I have right now, and to encourage them and show them that I care.